Warning

*** Trigger Warning Suicide Warning ***
Shocked, sad, sober... Grateful for the greater Sangha and every opportunity to be disillusioned.

There is another suicide in nonduality, awakening community i got aware recently. Last week someone shot himself in a head. This evoke an intensity in me so much for the people who support the unrealistic views on awakening as one shot deal, and critique any attempt to work on personality issues, or even mention them, in nonduality community. Even to counteract this arrogance I will continue to support post awakening with any modality that I found helpful to accommodate the energies of awakening into this very reality.

This is not rare occurrence, the last month nonduality teacher killed himself, and before that I got the message that LU member died in a hospital from cancer in complete despair and anger on life, refused to see her friends or anyone.  Can we all see that awakening is nothing to play with and it won't fix the problems you have, will not fix the fears, or any of it. Problems and fears all properties of the mind of the character, and after any experience of awakening we come back to the character we are, can you see that?

Awakening is opening a perspective that we are not the character, but to integrate this perspective in the energetic system takes time in this timespace reality, and there will be times of identification, there will be times of forgetting, there will be times of fears, problems and anything possible. The further inquiry is a must, it's not something to disregard. The support of right environment is a must, including someone who knows what is going on and can point where to continue to look. The depression and dark night of the soul is not a regression, but a medium to bring the remains of the ego to its knees and release any left ideas of control from the linear mind.

I always encourage people to immerse yourself in life fully, then the integration happens naturally, without mind controlling how to present yourself, how to behave, not building awakened self image.  Mind is very tricky instrument, it will fool in no time. Neighbors or wives don't give a fuk that you awake, those are the people to be around, to check with, not hide in discussing no self from all the angles possible online, but continue the inner inquiry guided by your own conscience.  The help from professionals in some cases is essential, and only you know deep down what you need. Listen to your own feeble voice of conscience, consult with masters and teachers who know what you are going through, because they went through it themselves. With time you be immersed in life, naturally integrating, and every moment is awake when we don't think about awakening, but living it ❤️

Added: There are recommendations on teachers/counselors/guides in this very thread, I invite to recommend and share your helpful experience with a guide you connected at one point or another.  I took out my own recommendations from this post and I will post them in the comments, since I am coming to remember more and more people who are here on FB, and can help in one way or another...

Please don't ask me personal questions of who committed subside, I will not be able to say that.  I just want to raise awareness that this radical shift in perception is not a stroll in a park.