Saturday, February 24, 2018

Flow Without End...

THERE ARE NO ENDINGS

There is nothing more glorious than the beginning of the path. Your heart soaring with possibility, you take that first baby step into the unknown. Trembling but alive, you walk.

It was never about getting to the end, reaching the finish line, it was always about falling in love with the beginnings. And life is always a beginning. Each step, each breath, each brand new day, each invitation to surrender, each sunset, each dawn, each wave of joy or sorrow, each chance to trust.

The ocean's waves do not end, they only fall back into their ocean, their Source, emerging again, falling, playing like children of infinity, held in unspeakable love. From the perspective of the Source, nothing has happened at all, except the dance. Endings are beginnings and beginnings are endings, here in the vastness of presence.

At the intersection, we meet. I don't know you, and you don't know me. Brought together by destiny or chance, we dance in the ocean's depths.

If you ran out of oxygen, I would breathe you.

- Jeff Foster

Neti Neti

“Meditation is not the pursuit of pleasure, nor the search for happiness…”
- J. Krishnamurti

"You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at the table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait. Do not even wait, be still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked – it has no choice. It will roll in ecstasy at your feet.” -- Franz Kafka

“Do not be a meditator. When you sit, let it be. When you walk, let it be. Grasp at nothing. Resist nothing.” -- Ajhan Chah

Life is so close you can’t see it. Don’t be the rider who rides all night and never sees the horse beneath him. -- Rumi

"True meditation has nothing to do with getting rid of anything in present experience. True meditation has nothing to do with changing present experience, or manipulating present experience. It has nothing to do with transforming present experience, or escaping present experience, or even becoming something. It’s got nothing to do with achieving some different state, some altered state, some transcendent state. It’s got nothing to do with getting rid of feeling, or getting rid of thoughts, or getting rid of anything. True meditation is not actually a doing at all."
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"There is nothing more glorious than the beginning of the path. Your heart soaring with possibility, you take that first baby step into the unknown. Trembling but alive, you walk.

It was never about getting to the end, reaching the finish line, it was always about falling in love with the beginnings. And life is always a beginning. Each step, each breath, each brand new day, each invitation to surrender, each sunset, each dawn, each wave of joy or sorrow, each chance to trust.

The ocean's waves do not end, they only fall back into their ocean, their Source, emerging again, falling, playing like children of infinity, held in unspeakable love. From the perspective of the Source, nothing has happened at all, except the dance. Endings are beginnings and beginnings are endings, here in the vastness of presence.

At the intersection, we meet. I don't know you, and you don't know me. Brought together by destiny or chance, we dance in the ocean's depths." - Jeff Foster

Throw a Stone in the Dark

"We keep thinking and hoping that there will be a great breakthrough. We think, “It might happen one of these days! Let’s just throw a stone in the dark!” We hope our stone might hit the head of our enemy or land on the bosom of our friend, but throwing a stone in the dark is a very haphazard approach. A breakthrough is not homemade: a breakthrough is reality. It could actually happen."

Milarepa

Huge Fragile Connection

"In recent years, the rise of cyberspace and virtual reality has returned us to a version of what Wertheim calls “medieval dualism.” People can experience part of their self as existing online or in a virtual universe, while their physical self occupies a chair. There are, though, a few differences.

“The difference between the contemporary cyber version of [the self] and the medieval version of it,” said Wertheim, “is that the cyber version of it is untethered from any notion of morality.”

In the Middle Ages, said Wertheim, people also had a language for discussing the self — she points to Dante’s Divine Comedy as a “beautifully articulated” description of the afterlife of our soul-self. Today, neuroscientists attempt to fill in the void by “trying to explain all psychological phenomena in terms of physiological things.”

Wertheim see limits to this approach. While many psychological states have a neurological basis, others — like the experience of pain or redness — are more fundamental, just like neurotransmitters or neurons firing. For neuroscience to really capture the essence of the self, a different approach is needed.

“I think we can find interesting things from studying neurophysiology,” said Wertheim, “but we still need a science of mind, not just of brain.”

In the interview, Wertheim also talks about how mathematics can help us understand the nature of reality. Much of the universe can be described in mathematical terms, often with a high degree of accuracy.

“Quantum mechanics and general relativity have both been demonstrated to be true in their demands of expertise to 20 decimal places of experimentation,” said Wertheim. “That’s a degree of success which is mind-blowing and awe-inspiring.”

But for many people, mathematical equations and concepts exist only on paper, even though they can also be found in the real world. For example, pi defines the circle that outlines the sun or a hubcap, and the swirling calla lily and fringe-like coral reefs are hyperbolic geometry in action.

Wertheim’s Institute For Figuring — or, IFF, which is also the logical symbol for “if and only if” — tries to help ordinary people discover the language of mathematics by learning it in “embodied ways.”

One of the Institute’s best known projects is the Crochet Coral Reef project, a crocheted model of the crenellated forms that corals make, which Wertheim says are “embodiments of negative curvature space, which has come to be called hyperbolic space — hyperbolic geometry.”

Hundreds, or thousands, of people work together — like the billions of coral polyps that built the Great Barrier Reef — to create a huge coral reef installation that connects people to not only mathematical concepts, but also to the fragility of the world around us.

“We humans, each of us are like a coral polyp,” said Wertheim. “Individually, we’re insignificant and probably powerless. But together, I believe we can do things. And I think the metaphor of the project is we are all corals now. We are all at risk.”

-- Shawn Radcliff

Love and Longing

"Kirtan is the calling, the crying, the reaching across infinite space — digging into the heart’s deepest well to touch and be touched by the Divine Presence.

Kirtan is singing over and over the many names of God and the Goddess, the multi-colored rainbow manifestations of the One. It is said that there is no difference between the name and that which is being named, and as the words roll off our lips in song, the Infinite is invoked, invited, made manifest in our hearts.

Jai UttalKirtan is part of an ancient form of Yoga known as Bhakti, or the Yoga of Devotion. But in Bhakti we redefine “devotion”, we expand the meaning to include every shade of color in the palette of human emotion, turned towards God through song, dance, and worship. These chants have been sung for millennium by sages, sinners, devotees, and the great primordial yogi alchemists of old. And, as we sing, we touch the spirits of the millions of people across the centuries who have sung the same songs and cried the same tears. As we sing, we immerse ourselves in an endless river of prayer that has been flowing since the birth of the first human beings, longing to know their creator.

Kirtan is a vessel that can hold love, longing, union, separation, lust, despair, mourning, anger, hate, sadness, ecstasy, and oneness. Powered by the fire of these emotions, the chants of Bhakti become like a ship, singing us to the other shore. In lightness, in darkness, in despair, in joy we sing the names — The Name — and turn our human hearts toward the One, who is closer to us than our own breath. Kirtan is food for the spirit, a life raft of song.

Kirtan is for all people. There are no masters of kirtan, no experts, no teachers, no advanced students, no beginners. The practice itself is the teacher, guiding us to ourselves. Kirtan teaches itself by allowing us to enter into a mystery world — a world where all the logic of our minds, all the conditioning and learning are left outside — and we allow ourselves to expand into the mystery.

And in this mystery, we create a temple inside of our hearts, a place of refuge, a place of love, a place of being, a place of sanctity… whatever we need.

There is no right or wrong way to sing kirtan. Kirtan can be breathtakingly beautiful, the music can be stunning and masterful; and it can be cacophonous, dissonant, and almost painful to the ears. Aesthetics don’t matter. All that matters is the spirit, the feeling. Don’t worry about what you sound like, feel whatever you feel, have no expectations, no inhibitions. Kirtan is an oil well digging deeper and deeper into the heart. A power tool of love and longing. A train carrying us home. Make these kirtans your own prayers and use their power to set fire to your own soul. We sing together and each person has a totally unique, individual experience. Yet by singing together we give strength, safety and passion to each other, and give ourselves permission to sing and dance freely, releasing and expressing through our voices and bodies, the emotions tightly locked in our hearts. The pain of separation is one with the bliss of union.

And finally kirtan is an offering, a gift to the great One who has given us everything, and to whom we can give nothing in return but our loving remembrance."

-- Jai Uttal, Grammy nominated sacred music composer, recording artist, multi-instrumentalist, and ecstatic vocalist, combines influences from India with influences from American rock and jazz, creating a stimulating and exotic multi-cultural fusion that is truly world spirit music.

Fierce Heart

"A few years ago, I was completely exhausted from all the projects I was involved in, and I began to crave solitude. I have always felt that deep down I am secretly a nun and my yogini nature loves solitude. This time I planned a five-month retreat in Crestone, Colorado, an area at the foot of the Sangre de Cristo Mountains, sacred to Native American communities.

I planned to spend the whole time at a Tibetan meditation center focusing on “purification practices”—prostrations, mantras, meditation, and visualizations. But after I’d been there for two months, a nun told me about a magical cabin way up in the mountains nearby, and I instantly knew I needed to spend the rest of my time on retreat there. I grew up in cities and am not that nature-ish, although I longed to be so; and this would be a real immersion in the natural world. So, despite snowstorms and freezing weather, up the mountain I went.

My cabin had a small solar panel, so I had a tiny fridge and lights for a couple of hours in the evening. There was a wood-burning stove, and when I got cold, I went out and got wood to make a fire. The caretaker brought food and water up every ten days, and I would meet him halfway up the rutty road. That was my only human contact. I decided against having a cell phone, and there was no Internet connectivity. I wanted to meditate like a true yogi. So there I was in this very isolated cabin, with an outhouse, a propane burner, a cushion, an altar, and a few Dharma books.

When I’d first heard about the cabin from the nun, I envisioned my retreat as a series of beautiful moments connecting with the Earth, with no one around to distract me. I imagined long periods of blissed out meditation. Setting up the space, though, I began to have second thoughts. Still, I encouraged myself, “Spring, you’re here! You know the Dharma; it’s time to rely on yourself. If times get hard, you can be your own refuge.” I thought the worst that could happen would be a feeling, that is that I would have to feel something. “Okay,” I thought, “I’ll feel whatever comes up. I can do this!”

But the moment the caretaker got in his truck and headed back down the hill, I instantly plummeted into the most painful sorrow I’ve ever known. Oceans of tears interrupted by overwhelming terror. Every day tears poured down my cheeks, my chest ached, and my body was filled with grief. I started sobbing in the morning and it went on for hours, in waves. It was huge and kept getting bigger; I didn’t understand where it was coming from. It was as though ten thousand years of ancestral sorrow was coming straight through my heart, and so I called it “African grief.” It consumed me physically, mentally, and spiritually for hours, a kind of purification. I had co-led several grief rituals led by my dear friend Sobonfu Somé, a healer, teacher, and shaman from Burkina Faso in West Africa. She’d describe this grief that was far beyond anyone’s control. She said that in her tradition, it’s critical to feel it completely and then let it go. While I was wailing, it would turn into gospel hymns, screaming for hours, and witnessing my body contort in unimaginable positions. I thought I was going crazy, but I began to try to trust the process.

In the evenings, as it got dark outside, terror would grip my heart and I’d shake uncontrollably. I was an African American woman completely alone in a place populated by rednecks, I thought. I was sure I’d be attacked and killed at any moment, ripped to shreds by wild animals or deranged rednecks.

I began marking off the days on a calendar, knowing that one day it would all come to an end. It was then I realized how much I needed compassion. I needed to care for myself through this, I needed to help myself. So I began to meditate on self-care and self-compassion for hours at a time, holding my hands on my heart. I began doing prostrations and bowing before my altar for hours, taking refuge in Quan Yin, the bodhisattva of compassion. I began praying for compassion, I sang songs about compassion, and I chanted Om Mani Padme Hum, the great compassion mantra, constantly. I called in all the compassionate deities from Quan Yin to Mother Mary and everyone in between to help me meet this profound pain, realizing that without compassion, I would not be able to stay present with the powerful forces that were moving through me.

On the days I felt my compassion run out, I borrowed some from Green Tara. I would say, “Tara, please help me. I need some compassion. I’ve lost all of mine.” And it would come. Then I’d say, “Thank you, I feel restored.” I thought about all the people in that very moment meditating, going into churches and temples, praying and reflecting, all the monks and nuns all over the world, as well as all the laypeople. I knew that in some way I was connected to them, and that their practice and faith affect me. We’re all interconnected.

The only way I could get any sleep was to stuff pillows behind me. I would sink down into them and imagine they were the giant bosoms of Mother Earth. I would imagine these big black arms reaching around me as if I were being held in the arms of the Great Mother, and I discovered that you can evoke compassion, this great force, and it will protect you.

After a month of this intense experience, I could feel that I was freeing myself of ancient suffering and that’s when I recognized compassion as a great chief. He, She, They, It, whatever it is, when it showed up, it never left my side. With compassion, I was able to bear what felt unbearable. All I could do was feel the emotions and have faith that my heart was strong enough to take it. I thought about all the beings who throughout the ages had freed their minds through struggles. I thought of Dr. King and Harriet Tubman a lot, as well as Buddha and his great struggle with the demon Mara. I thought of Jesus and his forty days and forty nights in the desert, when they say he battled the devil, and all the nuns I’d read about.

When we’re purifying ourselves, when we’re letting go of ancestral sorrows, it doesn’t necessarily come with bliss and light. I had expected serenity and moments connecting to nature. I had imagined it would be all beauty. We want liberation; we want to be awakened. We want to understand the Four Noble Truths without feeling the suffering or anything else too difficult.  But that’s not how it happens.

This solo retreat was the most intense unraveling I’ve ever experienced. It was a three-month vision quest, and on this journey it was as if I’d died and been reborn. I look back on it with amazement that I endured something that difficult by myself. But in fact I was never alone; the great chief of compassion was by my side every day. We don’t know what we’ll have to go through. Spending three months by myself in that tiny cabin, I developed an unshakeable faith. At the beginning, I thought, “The worst that could happen is feeling.” And wow, did I ever feel! Who knows where this stuff comes from? It was unwinding a sorrow so deep and a fear so entrenched that it felt it would break me at times. Without knowing it, I had prepared for years to be able to meet that experience and to begin to understand about the power of compassion."

-- Spring Washam, A Fierce Heart
Spring Washam is a well-known meditation and dharma teacher based in Oakland, California. She is a founding member and core teacher at the East Bay Meditation Center located in downtown Oakland. She is the founder of Lotus Vine Journeys an organization that blends indigenous healing practices with Buddhist wisdom. She was trained by Jack Kornfield and has studied numerous meditation practices and Buddhist philosophy since 1997. She is a member of the Sprit Rock Teachers Council. In addition to being a teacher she is also a healer, facilitator, spiritual activist and writer. Spring is considered a pioneer in bringing mindfulness based healing practices into diverse communities. She has studied indigenous healing practices and shamanic practices for over a decade. She has practiced and studied under some of the most preeminent meditation masters in both the Theravada and Tibetan schools of Buddhism. She currently travels and teaches workshops, classes and retreats worldwide. www.springwasham.com

Connected with all Beings

“We’re not just doing this simply for self-centered reasons so that we can experience meaning, direction, freedom, love, or peace. We’re doing this because in the heart of our deepest realizations, they connect us. The realizations connect us with all beings, with all things. And love and compassion and truthfulness flow out of that connectivity.”

~ Adyashanti

"Taking the One Seat" Online Course

Liberation of the Animals

"All my life I wanted a dog. After all, I was an only child. To a child without neighborhood friends, without sisters who could become eternal confidantes, without brothers as co-conspirators in life, a dog was the only obvious substitute for companionship. Or at least it was obvious to me. It was not at all obvious to my mother. Our house, my mother insisted, was not the kind of place where dogs belonged—a walk-up in a northern city given to lake-effect snowstorms. And furthermore, the landlord agreed with her.

But my mother could deal with the idea of my having a bird. On Good Friday, Billy, a blue parakeet, became the Easter gift of my life. Nothing has ever quite matched it since.

I couldn’t take a bird for a walk, of course, as I had seen so many children my age do with their dogs. And we couldn’t play ball together. But, on the other hand, I learned that having a bird meant having a companion where the interaction was more intense than it was with a dog. Dogs, at least to some extent, had a life of their own. Billy’s whole life, on the other hand—every drop of water, every bite of food, every ounce of attention, every bit of play—depended on me. It was an amazingly warm and personal thought. It grew me up in ways I could never have expected.

“Joan,” my mother said, “you taught that bird to eat out of your hand. Now you get home here and feed it.” So, I quit the swimming lessons that were not half as important to me as Billy was, and did. Billy became my playmate, my ally, my first guide into the depth and meaning of the animal-human bond.

Billy came and filled my empty hours, learned to talk to me a little, flew to my finger when I called her off the curtain rods, woke me in the morning—and then, several years later, simply disappeared one day. And broke my heart.

No one knew how it had happened or where she’d gone. I only knew that, at the age of thirteen, I had lost something irreplaceable.

All over the world, everywhere, humans and animals form great bonds that give them both another kind of gift of life. Which is one of the reasons I’m writing this book. Nevertheless, I hesitate to begin it. A book of this nature brings with it a kind of intimacy and spiritual insight that seems to demand a special kind of privacy. After all, if you begin to talk about your pets as if such talk merits some kind of genuine attention, spiritual as well as psychological, what will people think?

So, this book has been in process for a long, long time. Years. In fact, I had to go through several levels of spiritual growth myself before I realized that it was, indeed, a book worth writing.

At first, I thought of it as nothing but the opportunity to tell a series of anecdotes about the animals I’d lived with in various stages of my life. After all, I had regaled groups for years with stories that smacked of depths far beyond either the usual tales of animal behavior or human appreciation of animal companions. Writing the stories down would simply provide the opportunity for a lot of people who like animals, who have lived with pets, to compare their own experiences to mine. Maybe to have a few laughs. Maybe to cry a tear or two.

Many of the stories, I knew, were funny. But some of them, I also knew, were quite surprising for the level of spiritual insight they brought to my own understanding of the human-animal relationship.

Then, one day, in a public lecture I gave, I found myself beginning to explore the differences between the two creation stories in Genesis that have shaped the consciousness of the Judeo-Christian world for thousands of years. At that point, I suddenly realized that there is something quite spiritually profound in the question of what it means to be entrusted with nature, to live with a pet.

In the first creation story, Adam and Eve, first couple and prototypes of the human race that would come after them, are given dominion over what we call The Garden of Eden.

Who doesn’t know the story? Who hasn’t heard its conditions and its promises? Who doesn’t take for granted the power conferred on humans there? Who doesn’t recognize that, as part of the human condition, the story awards humankind dominance and precedence over all other living creatures?

The second creation story, however, far less commonly preached—in fact, commonly overlooked—challenges the reader in very different ways than the first. In this story, God the Creator brings the animals to Adam to be named—which, commentators commonly explained, is the proof that Adam had been given “power over them.”

But, I could see, there are very serious problems with this interpretation.

Scholars tell us that this second creation story, which gives us the naming of the animals, is actually older than the so-called first creation story. It was, in other words, written earlier than the domination story. Only at a later period in biblical history was this creation story about the naming of the animals repositioned. The effect of that kind of editing on the understanding of the nature of creation and its implications for humans has been momentous.

Clearly, the relationship between humans and animals had once held a very prominent place, a very primary place, in the human catalogue of spiritual lessons. The human-animal relationship had once held pride of place in the spiritual agendas of human development. The repositioning of the naming story not only made it secondary to the domination story. It also made the dominance theme seem more basic, more fundamental, to human purpose.

God bringing the animals to Adam to be named was hardly proof of “power.” On the contrary. Naming is an act of relationship, not dominance. We name our children; we name our friends; we name those with whom we develop an emotional bond. But we do not name them in order to get power over them. We name what is near and dear to us. We name the animals we take into our families, the animals we commit ourselves to care for, the ones we take responsibility for, the ones with whom we develop a personal relationship.

Naming gives our relationships character and recognition and respect. Without doubt, then, the biblical story of naming the animals has both personal and spiritual implications for the way we deal with all the creatures of the earth.

The first creation story is the domination story. It defines the process of creation from one level to another. It gives human beings the right to use the rest of the planet for our own use.

The second creation story is the relationship story. By asserting a particular bond between humans and animals, it inserts us into the animal world and animals into ours—with everything that implies about interdependence.

With all of that in mind, I began to think differently about human-animal relationships. I began to realize what happens to human life and values when humans begin to separate themselves from the rest of life. Or worse yet, when humans begin to construct a hierarchy of life, with themselves at the untouchable top of it.

I began to comprehend more completely that life is about more than us. I began to understand that there is something necessarily spiritual about the human-animal alliance. There is something to explore there about the very nature of bondedness. There is something to be learned from relationships that demand more than words to make them real—and yet are clearly and certainly real, nevertheless.

More than that, there is also another level of reality that accounts for the writing of this book. The truth is that my own life demands it. I have never planted a flower. I have never staked a tomato plant. I have never watched anything grow or harvested it or had to wait for it to ripen in order to live.

Like most of the rest of the human race at this moment in history, I have been raised almost entirely in cities. And I have begun to see the effects of that on the human soul.

In the neighborhood where I live, we have children who have never dug up a potato, who have no idea where radishes and other vegetables come from, who are amazed to learn that peaches grow on trees. These are children who learn about food in cans and animals from picture books. And yet, pets are everywhere. So how to explain that?

The modern tendency to accept pets into our lives and our homes is, I think, a subconscious human attempt to cling to nature in a world made of glass and steel that has divided us from it.

At least my own life is proof of that, and I recognize that as both a human and a spiritual lack. I also recognize that I am not the only one for whom this is true.

More than personal deprivation, social isolation, and emotional disconnectedness confront us as a species now. Crowded into high-rise apartment buildings, we are a century away from the smell of grass and the care for animal habitats. The effects of such physical and psychological distance from the natural world around us are sobering. It is the ability to destroy life without grief, to live life devoid of layers of consciousness, to develop technological relationships bare of affect.

And it shows. Our rain forests are being reduced to money. Our animals are being driven from their habitats to die on barren wastes while we wonder why they’re disappearing. Our lakes and oceans are denuded from overfishing.

Unless we begin to align ourselves with nature, nature will be endangered and our own lives with it. Our own souls with it, in fact. We are here as part of creation, not as consumers of it. We are here to care for this planet, not to exploit it. We are here to find our proper place in it, to grow with it spiritually as well as physically.

But in order to do any of those things, we may need to rethink our theology as well as our role on the planet.

Seduced by a theology of superiority and domination, sure that the world and everything in it had been made for human consumption and human control, the narrative of human relationships with animals has a very mixed and sad history. Only the findings of science concerning the intelligence, feelings, and place of animals in the human enterprise, and the realization that we are all made of the same stuff, have begun once again to reverse the story of human-animal relationships and return it to an earlier cosmology.

We know now that if human beings disappeared tomorrow, the existence of birds, insects, water creatures, and land animals wouldn’t be affected at all. If animals disappeared tomorrow, on the other hand, human beings could not possibly live without them—as long as bees are needed even to pollinate so many plants. As the top of the food chain, we would be the first to go. The interdependence of the species that has become so clear in our age has also shed new light on the concept of creation itself. The Creator of all, the scriptures tells us, saw all of creation as “good.” It is our role to protect it, to guard it, to develop it, to sustain it—not to destroy it for our own purposes.

It is indeed time for us to begin to listen to the animals.

There are those who remind us now that the liberation of animals may well be the great liberation movement of this century.

But if that is the case, we must begin to think with the animals. We must begin to realize that they do not belong to us—they belong to God. They have lives of their own. And their lives affect ours. Whatever happens to the animals will eventually happen to the human animal.

This is a book about the role of animal companions in the development of our own spiritual lives. It is written for those who have pets and already understand that. It is also written for those who do not have pets and wonder why so many people do. It is a book about reestablishing the human-animal relationships Creation meant us to have. So, I am starting at the personal end of the subject—because my animal friends drew me out of myself and made me aware of another whole level of what it means to be alive. They gave me a much broader vision than it would have been if I had shaped it for myself out of nothing but work and time and things. In them, I have seen another face of God."

-- Joan Chittister, Two Dogs and a Parrot
Sister Chittister is a progressive Catholic theologian in the Creation Spirituality tradition, affirming original blessing and the Divine immanent in creation. She is also, profoundly, an activist, speaking up for the environment and the people and bringing the lessons of life with her pets into a gentle, empathic—and mischievous—witness for justice for the beings of the earth.

Photo ~ Sister Joan blessing Sojo friend, Bono, at the '08 Women's Conference in California. Photo by Gold Wong/FilmMagic)/Getty.

Dark Night Lessons

To connect with the great river we all need a path, but when you get down there there's only one river.
MATTHEW FOX

"Some lessons from the mystics about the dark night are these:

1) It is a special and valuable place to be for we learn things here that we do not learn in the light: lessons of wisdom and often of compassion for example.

2) You will be tempted to flee, for the dark night is an uncomfortable place to find oneself. Flight may take many forms including addictions, denial, cover-up, passivity, couch-potato-itis, and a “let the others guys fix things”mentality.

3) Courage is required to stick around at such a time as the Sufi mystic Hafiz put it,  “when God turns us upside down to shake all the nonsense out.”A lot of nonsense needs shaking out today, much of it inherited from a modern consciousness that separated us from ourselves and the Earth and other species.

4) Sometimes one tastes nothingness in times like this. Do not be afraid. Nothingness can turn on a dime to deep creativity. Dare to stick around and taste all that the darkness has to say to us. Silence too. Meister Eckhart once said: “I once had a dream—though a man, that I was pregnant—pregnant with nothingness. And out of this nothingness God was born.”

5) Absence or near-absence of hope tempts us, yet despair is not a worthy option. St Thomas Aquinas says that while injustice is the worst of sins, despair is the most dangerous. Why? Because when a person or a community yields to despair, they do not love themselves and therefore do not care about others either.

Feminist poet Adrienne Rich warns of a “fatalistic self-hatred”that accompanies patriarchy. Such self-hatred can lead to despair. How then do we resist despair? One way is to “look up to the mountains”as the Psalmist proposes. Look to the bigger picture. Let go of our anthropocentrism and narcissism (to use Pope Francis’words) to take in the more-than-human world again. Absorb the cosmos anew and with it the story and 13.8 billion year history that has brought us this far.

Scott Russell Sanders in his powerful book, Hunting for Hope: A Father’s Journey, puts it this way. “I still hanker for the original world, the one that makes us rather than the one we make. I hunger for contact with the shaping power that curves the comet’s path and fills the owl’s throat with song and fashions every flake of snow and carpets the hills with green. It is a prodigal, awful, magnificent power, forever casting new forms into existence then tearing them apart and starting over….

That the universe exists at all, that it obeys laws, that those laws have brought forth galaxies and stars and planets and—on one planet, at least—life, and out of life, consciousness, and out of consciousness these words, this breath, is a chain of wonders. I dangle from that chain and hold on tight.”How tight are we hanging onto that chain of wonders that brought us into being? In this book Andrew Harvey and Carolyn Baker assist us in our dangling and holding on tight; and our wondering; and our healing and getting over ourselves; and our moving to a new moment in our evolution. Are we up to the task? Stay tuned."

-- Mathew Fox

Bus Fuss

Tomorrow I drive the bus, limericks have five lines thus...

A good friend of mine whose name was Gus
Went to work every day on a bus
Often the bus was late
His boss gave him the gate
Gus did fuss, at bus driver did cuss

I got such a soaking on boarding the bus
Which I have to say left me somewhat nonplussed
So after buying a ticket, and finding a seat
I inquired of the driver, "Has this bus sprung a leak"?
and the driver replied, "Nah mate it hasn't, it's amphibious"

Energy Flows

“Fifteen years ago, I had a rendezvous with a half-blind Indian shaman in the Buffalo airport. As we sat in the fast-food café sipping tea, we each drew our cosmologies on paper napkins, which we then exchanged. His was ancient and had been passed down over the centuries; mine was brand new. He called his a medicine wheel; I didn’t have a name for mine, so I called it a map…

There are plenty of ways to get to the stillpoint… I get there by dancing. I remember being a wild child of the sixties, having to dance or die — letting go of everything I thought, felt, or knew to be true as some kind of jazz riff seized my bones. I spent long nights in my living room, the music at full volume, eyes half closed, making love to the beat. Swooning to the rhythm, I felt as if I’d met the ultimate lover. In ecstatic rapture, I surrendered to something old and mysterious… For me this has taken place on countless dance floors, when the music was really pumping and I stopped caring about what anybody else thought of my dance, my hairdo, my brain, or my butt. Through dancing I navigated the badlands of endless headtrips and found my way back to the stomping ground of my own two feet. Through dancing I discovered that when you put the psyche in motion, it heals itself. Since making this realization many years ago, I have become a tour guide, taking groups of people on the inner journey from inertia to ecstasy…

After a number of years of looking out at dancing bodies from my stillpoint, I began to see patterns in their movements, an infrastructure underlying all our experience, a living language. I was stunned at how all these patterns revealed themselves to me in fives, as if guided by some universal principle. From where I sat in the deep, dark emptiness, every body appeared as a star in a sky of infinite possibilities…

Eva was my first spiritual teacher, though of course I didn’t realize it until long after. I was living with my parents near Golden Gate Park in San Francisco. I’m playing with some friends in the street. We’re throwing ourselves recklessly into a large hedge on the side of a house. Suddenly an elderly woman bolts out of the house and scares away my friends. I stay, as my friends run off, mesmerized by her energy and captivated by her strangely gentle scolding, “Children, can’t you hear the leaves and branches screaming? Don’t you know they’re in pain?”

She invites me in for tea. Her eyes are blue tunnels, her hair silver. Her body is taut, slender, and her conversation is punctuated with a quick, high-pitched laugh. The house is flooded with music and the smells of soup cooking. Enchanted, I know I have found not just a new friend, but a friend for a new part of myself. We spend endless afternoons drinking tea and talking. I don’t even know that I’m learning more here than at school, because it’s all so effortless. But it’s in dying that Eva teaches me the most. I have a vision of her death during morning Mass. I go every day. I love the solitude, the stillness of the old Catholic church. Just me and a bunch of old ladies in black, rocking and rolling our rosary beads. This particular morning, as the priest serves Holy Communion, I see something moving above his head. It looks like an eagle. It looks like Eva. She’s a see-through shadow of herself, laughing so loud I’m sure the priest can hear. He doesn’t bat an eye, has no idea what’s going on, and that’s when I know she’s dying. She blows me a kiss as I fight back my tears.

I’m terrified. I don’t even go to school. I run to her house where I find her very much alive. I tell her what I’ve seen, and she speaks to me in that always surprising way of hers. She convinces me that death is not negative. I can’t focus on her words, make any logical sense of them. All I get is that death seems like an exotic recipe, a wonderful way to make a pie. Her energy begins to shift inward. Our visits are shot through with silence. Or music. Sometimes Chopin. Sometimes Frank Sinatra. Sometimes a wailing gypsy. Eva gradually moves into the bedroom. It’s a permanent move. “She’s moving in, and out,” I think. One afternoon, while reading to her, the color of the room begins to change. It slowly becomes bathed in silver. I see a thread of her silver hair extend right out of her head and turn into a thread of light that penetrates deep inside me. I bask in a silver glow, a meditation without effort, an ecstatic tranquility. I feel like I’ve floated to another level, been transported to another place. I think I’m in heaven. Eva is dead. Her spirit is gone. I close her eyes the way she told me to. And I keep reading to her. I don’t want to leave. When I do, I close the door and don’t look back. She told me not to.

Eva’s death was a beginning for me, an initiation into a fresh way of seeing life and death, a way of dissolving, at least momentarily, the boundaries between body and soul, now and forever. It was my first encounter with ecstasy. I found the Silver Desert as a child, but like most people, I lost it as I grew up. Our culture does not value or even believe in ecstasy. All too soon the soul starves…

Right from the start, I discovered that when I dance I bypass my personality. It can’t keep up. It has no sense of rhythm, because it’s like a robot, programmed to only certain patterns of movement. When I dance, I break free. I make up my own steps, let the beat all the way into my soul. I ride on the waves of music like a surfer. I bump against parts of myself, go between, around, stretch what I know. I go where I’ve never been. Through dance I’ve journeyed through my body into my heart, past my mind into another dimension of existence, a dimension I call ecstasy, total communion with the spirit. Moving with the spirit has taught me all I know. And all I know is that ecstatic movement is empowering and healing…

At the beginning of my journey, teachers came to me in all forms. My initiation began on playgrounds and senior-citizen centers. To work my way through college, I taught dance and drama to kids and old people for a variety of recreation departments. At least that’s what I thought I was doing. They were my first Zen masters. They taught me to lead by following. It was impossible to “control” 300 kids on a playground or 50 seniors, each with their own worlds and fixed ideas. It was impossible to impose my great plans — plans I may have stayed up half the night creating — unless they happened (as they occasionally did) to fit into their flow. More often than not, to retain my sanity, I had to drop my brilliant ideas and flow, spontaneously creating movement and dance out of the energy in the room or on the playground. I had to draw them out from where they were. I followed them into the moment, and found it a magical place.

It was there I first discovered the rhythms by which energy flows, by paying attention to their moves, the sudden gear shifts in intensity and style. The kids especially changed very quickly, and I had to shift with them: one minute I’d be telling stories, the next moment creating a new tag game; then I’d be explaining why two dogs were stuck together; soon I’d be umpiring a baseball game; and then a crying kid would need consoling. I had a day-after-day intensive in improvisation, intuiting just what to do in the moment, creating something special out of just a hint, an accident, a confrontation. But mostly the children and the seniors, each in their own way, inspired me just to be myself. And looking back, I realize that my real job was to keep their energy channeled in positive, creative directions.”

~ Gabrielle Roth,. Maps to Ecstasy: A Healing Journey for the Untamed Spirit
"Gabrielle Roth (1941 – 2012) was an American dancer and musician in the world music and trance dance genres, with a special interest in shamanism. She created the 5Rhythms approach to movement in the late 1970s; there are now hundreds of 5Rhythms teachers worldwide who use her approach in their work." ~ Wikpedia

Emptiness Dancing

“It is one thing to come upon enlightenment, the breaking through distinctions to the great unity.  It is quite another to realize its function and activity. Until the emptiness can dance spontaneously, realization is not complete.”

~ Adyashanti, My Secret Is Silence
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Image ~ "My body as the holy space where I play ways into embodied creativity. The space is neither full or empty, but both.
Sometimes we have to dance so hard that we can break through. Sometimes we have to soften and let go so we can let things in. Sometimes we have to be so full of our life force that we can not resist transformation.

But nothing is fixed. It is always changing. In awareness we learn to breath into the flow state of being with what is emerging. With attention we learn to both apply our breath and intention to the empty space, and to become embodied presence in creative action. This workshop is a chance to explore our body as holy place in which to play."

~ Emma is a certified 5R teacher and movement practicioner with a rich and extensive background in movement, dance, theater and therapy. She teaches in the UK and Europe. She continues to develop and research ways into embodied presence and creative practice. For more info about her work, visite her website: http://www.shapingtheinvisible.co.uk

Let's See What Happens

“I was brought up in a Spiritualist family… In my house, death was an everyday subject; it was a topic which we talked about with a great deal of enthusiasm and interest. It wasn’t morbid. And on those few occasions in my life when I really thought, “Now I’m about to die,” my next reaction has always been, “Let’s see what happens.” I think that is because as a child death was an open subject. I’m deeply grateful for this, because in our society, talk of death generally makes people feel uncomfortable. So many people are afraid of it for themselves and for others. We don’t accept that everything which comes into being lasts awhile and then goes. But that’s the cycle. Everything is impermanent. And it’s our non-acceptance of this which brings us grief. We live in our relationships, torn between our hopes and our fears because we hold on so tightly, so afraid to lose.

Everything is flowing. And this flow isn’t made up only of external things. It includes relationships, too. Some relationships last for a long time, and some don’t—that’s the way of things. Some people stay here for some time; some people leave very quickly. It’s the way of things. Every year millions and millions of people are born and die. In the West, our lack of acceptance is quite amazing. We deny that anyone we love could ever be lost to us. So often we are unable to say to someone who is dying, “We’re so happy to have had you with us. But now, please have a very happy and safe journey onwards.” It’s this denial which brings us grief.

Impermanence is not just of philosophical interest. It’s very personal. Until we accept and deeply understand in our very being that things change from moment to moment, and never stop even for one instant, only then can we let go. And when we really let go inside, the relief is enormous. Ironically this gives release to a whole new dimension of love. People think that if someone is unattached, they are cold. But this isn’t true. Anyone who has met very great spiritual masters who are really unattached is immediately struck by their warmth to all beings, not just to the ones they happen to like or are related to. Non-attachment releases something very profound inside us, because it releases that level of fear. We all have so much fear: fear of losing, fear of change, an inability to just accept.

So this question of impermanence is not just academic. We really have to learn how to see it in our everyday lives. In the Buddhist practice of mindfulness, of being present in the moment, one of the things which first strikes one is how things are constantly flowing, constantly appearing and disappearing. It’s like a dance. And we have to give each being space to dance their dance. Everything is dancing; even the molecules inside the cells are dancing. But we make our lives so heavy. We have these incredibly heavy burdens we carry with us like rocks in a big rucksack. We think that carrying this big heavy rucksack is our security; we think it grounds us. We don’t realize the freedom, the lightness of just dropping it off, letting it go. That doesn’t mean giving up relationships; it doesn’t mean giving up one’s profession, or one’s family, or one’s home. It has nothing to do with that; it’s not an external change. It’s an internal change. It’s a change from holding on tightly to holding very lightly.

Just recently, I was in Adelaide, Australia, and somebody handed me a cartoon strip which showed how to hold things. The first cartoon was about holding things gently, like a newborn chick; the second cartoon addressed different ways of holding things skillfully, with honor and respect, but not tightly. And then the last cartoon said, “After that, we have to let go. But that’s a whole other thing—we’ll deal with that later!”

Yes, we have to know how to hold things lightly, and with joy. This enables us to be open to the flow of life. When we solidify, we lose so much. Engaged in a relationship with our partner, our children, and with others in this world, we may solidify them by casting them in certain roles. That’s how we see them. And after a while, we no longer experience the real person in the moment. We just see our projection of that person. Even though they are completely unique, and even though they may actually be transforming and changing within, we don’t see that any more, because all we see is our pattern. And then people get bored with each other, or at least they get kind of locked into a relationship which has lost its early vitality. As I said, that’s because we don’t experience the actual moment; we just experience our version of events.

When we look at something, we see it for a moment but then immediately our judgments, our opinions, our comparisons step right in. They become filters between us and the person or object we are looking at, and these filters take us further and further away from what is. We’re left with our own impressions and ideas, but the thing in itself is gone. This is especially true when our subject is other people. We all know that when people are relating an event, it’s almost as though each person is telling a different story.

We’ve all had the experience of listening to someone tell of an event that was shared in common, and thought something like, “It didn’t happen like that!” “They didn’t say that,” or, “It wasn’t like that at all; you completely missed the point!” In other words, everything becomes incredibly subjective. We don’t see the thing in itself; we just see our version. And nowhere is this reflected more clearly than in our resistance to the fact that we are all changing moment to moment. It’s as though the carpet is continually being pulled from under our feet, and we can’t bear that. “That carpet is going to stay just where I want that carpet to stay. That same carpet, under the same feet.” And because that can’t ever happen, because we can never, however much we delude ourselves, have things exactly the same, we have this pain.

It’s so important to understand that our happiness and peace of mind do not come from seeking security in permanence and stability. Our happiness comes rather from finding security in the ever-changing nature of things. If we feel happy and thus able to be buoyant in the current, nothing can ever upset us. But if we build something so rigid that we don’t want it ever to change—a relationship, our job, anything—then when we lose it, we’re completely thrown off balance. Normally, people think that the constant change of things is something frightening. But once we really understand that it’s actually the very nature of things to flow, to change, then we become completely balanced and open and accepting. It’s when we try to dam up the stream that the water becomes very stagnant. We have to let things flow. Then, the water is always fresh and clear.

When I went to India for the first time I found work as a volunteer at the Young Lamas Home School teaching young tulkus, or incarnate lamas. After that, I went to live with my lama, Khamtrul Rinpoche. I was ordained and then I worked with him for six years as a nun and as his secretary. Although I didn’t have any money, he always gave me room and of course, food. I was taken care of. Then the community moved to their present site of Tashi Jong. At that time the land was a tea estate; nothing yet had been built on it, and everyone in the community was living in tents. Khamtrul Rinpoche said to me, “During the next year, it would be a good idea if you didn’t come to Tashi Jong yet as there’s nowhere for you to stay. So you go off and do your own thing for a year and then come back after we’ve got some buildings.”

The whole community went to Tashi Jong, and I was left behind, in a hill station called Dalhousie. I remember standing on a hill looking out over the plains on one side and the mountains on the other, and for a moment feeling totally desolate. My lama had gone. The community had gone. I had no family there; I had no friends there. I had no money, and nowhere to stay. I didn’t know what to do. I thought, “Oh dear—.” And then I thought, “My whole life is given to the Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha. Gampopa said that anyone who practices the Dharma, anybody on a genuine spiritual path, will never starve.” So I told myself, “All right. I’ve handed over my whole life to the Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha, so let them take care of it.” And I felt this tremendous sense of reassurance that it was perfectly all right to be insecure. In that moment, I really got an insight into the fact that real security lies not in clinging to security but in feeling secure within that insecurity.”

~ Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo, Into the Heart of Life
"Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo was born Diane Perry in Woolmers Park, Hertfordshire, on June 30, 1943. She realized at the age of 18 that she was a Buddhist when she read a library book on the subject. She moved to India at 20, where she taught English at the Young Lamas Home School for a few months before meeting her root lama, the 8th Khamtrul Rinpoche. In 1964 she became only the second Western woman to be ordained in the Tibetan Buddhist tradition, receiving the name Drubgyu Tenzin Palmo, or 'Glorious Lady who Upholds the Doctrine of the Practice Succession'.

On 16 February 2008, Tenzin Palmo was conferred as Jetsunma (reverend lady) in recognition of her spiritual achievements as a nun and her efforts in promoting the status of female practitioners in Tibetan Buddhism by the head of the Drukpa Lineage, the Twelfth Gyalwang Drukpa /Gyalwang Drukpa the XIIth - Gyalwang Drukpa."

Virtuous Lotus

"Jetsun Pema’s autobiography opens with her carefree and happy life in Lhasa, where she was “born with a silver spoon in my mouth.” Even though her family started as an ordinary peasant family, they became the most important family in Tibet as there were three reincarnations in her family, her eldest brother was reincarnated as the head of the monastery of Kumbum, her older was reincarnated as The Dalai Lama and her younger brother, was the reincarnation of Ngari Rinpoche, a close friend of the thirteenth Dalai Lama. As the sister of His Holiness, the Dalai Lama, Jetsun Pema knew little discord. True to the Karmic virtue of reward, she had a loving and attentive Amala (mother) and Pala (father), she lived in a 60 room home, full of her extended family, servants and, at times, hermits, and she delighted in playing games in her magnificent gardens and going to school with her cousins. The influence of Buddhism in her life, like that of most Tibetan, was present from early childhood on and completely permeated her life with its notion of tolerance, respect, generosity, and kindness. Even those people who did not understand the fundamentals of the religion, had an inner awareness of Buddhism. Her Amalya was her first lama/guru of compassion, generosity and kindness, and she along with her brothers taught Jetsun the importance of respect. Tolerance on the other hand, was instilled in her, yet the impact of this virtue was soon to be tested.

In 1949, at the age of 10, Jetsun Pema’s life was about to change dramatically. Her family decided that she was to accompany her sister to India so that her sister could receive medical treatment. They also decided that she would be schooled at the Loreto covent, where she would learn, among other things, the old and new testament, how to read and write English, and analytical problem solving. Even if Jetsun Pema was reciting a “hail mary” in a catholic chapel, she did not have any inward conflict because “I knew where I came from and who I was.”  The influence of Buddhism had permeated her being was present in all of her action. Even at an early age Jetsun Pema understood herself and knew how to live at peace with herself, without fear of the future.

While Jetsun Pema was in school at the Loreto covent, things started to deteriorate in Tibet. By the Winter of 1950/1951, the Chinese invaded part of country and were occupying Amdo, resulting in the Dalai Lama assuming state responsibility as the spiritual and temporal leader for the Tibetan state at the premature age of 16. It was clear by 1956 that the Chinese Communist goal was to control Tibet and its culture. Despite the brutal violence, the attacks on monks and monasteries, and the all-out gorilla warfare, Jetsun Pema knew that salvation could only come through faith and maintained her belief in Buddhism. After the 1959 uprising in Lhasa, the Dalai Lama escaped Tibet and sought refuge in India. His thoughts did not dwell on the past, and he believed, as he still does today “that a solution exists for all difficulties.”  Part of that solution was the education of the Tibetan refugee children, as eduction was the hope for Tibet’s future. Jetsun Pema would ultimately take the lead for that future. She embraced what the Dalai lama said that the crisis was part of the collective karma of the Tibetan people and the resolution had to come from the Tibetans.

After finishing her schooling in Switzerland and England, Jetsun Pema worked relentlessly to assure the success of the Tibetan Children’s Village. In order to establish a base in exile, Jetsun Pema knew that she had to educate the children in a way that preserved the Tibetan language, culture, religion and identity because this was the only way to prepare for their eventual return to Tibet. Despite the constant influx of sick, malnourished children who crossed the Himalayan mountain range, Jetsun Pema found a way to wake them from their walking nightmares. Her thoughts did not dwell on the past, only the future. She found a way to foster the development of the thousands of refugee children by creating a modern educational system grounded in Tibetan culture and religion, and making them proud of their roots and religion.

In 1980, Jetsun Pema returned to Tibet as part of a delegation tasked with evaluating the educational system in Tibet. Once there she learned of the totality of the atrocities that have been perpetrated on the Tibetan people. Even though “the Tibetans live in Tibet like animal” and have “lost their families, identities, religion, houses, and monasteries,” Jetsun Pema remained optimistic about the future of Tibet. In spite of all the suffering that she witnessed, she did not lose confidence that one day Tibet would be free and that she and the Tibetans in exile would return. She embraced the Dalai Lama's sentiment that it is merely a question of time as to when Tibet will be free, and said “however long it takes the day will come when we will return with dignity to a country that will once again be free.”  She knew that the illumination of the path towards a free and reunited Tibet depended on the education of the refugee children, and she had to continue preparing the children to take on their responsibilities in this movement.

Once Jetsun Pema returned to India she reaffirmed her belief that “both individuals and Tibetans must recognize their responsibilities to Tibet, to the 1,200,000 Tibetans who died and those who still suffer,” and such responsibility entails preparing for the future of Tibet. She considered herself fortunate to live in India because in this host country, Tibetans were free people, they could prepare for our country’s future. When she heard her native language spoken in India, a foreign country, she new a “very distinctive atmosphere of our nation survived.” While waiting for the ultimate return to Tibet, Jetsun Pema does not rest. She has not yielded to the force of the conqueror or resigned. Instead, she is dealing with the situation in a nonviolent way. She is preparing the children in exile for the return, instilling peace in the minds of the young and garnering support from the international community,

Jetsun Pema certainly earned the name Virtuous Lotus that her brother, the Dalai Lama, bestowed upon her. Like the Lotus, Jetsun Pema continues to rise and bloom above the murky waters towards enlightenment. She gave all of herself in her work for the children of Tibet. In recounting her people’s story, Jetsun Pema generates a sense of hope that someday Tibet will be at peace and have its autonomy from China, and that the hundreds of thousands of Tibetans cast into the diaspora can return from exile into their native land."

-- "Tibet My Story An Autobiography, was written by Jetsun Pema with the aid of Giles Van Grasdorf and was published in 1996 by Editions Ramsay. Jetsun Pema is the sister of the current Fourteenth Dalai Lama, and is one of the most important women in modern Tibetan history. This book demonstrates Jetsun Pema’s unwavering faith to serve all of the Tibetan people, both those in exile and those held captive in their native land. Tibet My Story chronicles Pema’s early life in Lhasa prior to Chinese occupation, her exile from Tibet, and her subsequent work as a member of the Tibetan government in exile establishing the Tibetan Children's Village in Dharamsala, India. Pema wants her story to transcend just the narrative of her life and serve as the voice of the Tibetan people recounting the story of the suffering endured by an entire generation. Pema’s story is still incredibly relevant today; it has been over twenty years since the publication of Tibet My Story An Autobiography, yet the state of the Tibetan people has barely improved. In reading this book about her life and the struggle of the Tibetan people, Pema wants us to focus on the message of hope, and ultimately this narrative sows the seeds of an optimistic future."

-- Corin Bronsther, Columbia University

Realistic and Laid-back

"In traditional Buddhist countries, people are quite realistic and laid back concerning dharma practice. Although they have deep faith and devotion, they understand that we are all flawed human beings. So they tend to be less critical both of themselves and others.

Western students, on the other hand, often try to become the perfect practitioner, to transform themselves into a Japanese or Tibetan, assuming not only the outer etiquette, but the inner attitudes of one’s adopted dharma country. Usually, however, this approach merely accentuates one’s low self-esteem and lack of confidence. To walk the path with confidence, we need to accept and befriend ourselves, to feel at ease in our own skin.

Most Buddhist teachers have encountered the tendency of Western practitioners to take themselves and the dharma very seriously. Perhaps it is a leftover from the students’ traditional religious backgrounds, but there is sometimes a humorless quality to the intensity and focus on achievement. Solemnity and earnestness often prevail in Western dharma circles.

One of the noticeable qualities of most Asian dharma teachers—and some Western teachers—is their readiness to laugh and joke. The Dalai Lama is a prime example of someone who spontaneously laughs when anything strikes him as funny—even in the midst of a solemn ceremony. This doesn’t mean that he isn’t deeply sincere; he’s just not too serious.

Usually it is our old companion the ego that likes to take itself seriously in order to feel important. So when we become interested in the dharma, the ego happily cloaks itself with an aura of spirituality and readily agrees to undertake retreats and disciplines to become a better and more realized “me.” Rather than quietly working to change our minds, it is easy to fall into the trap of taking on the most advanced practices and empowerments long before we are ready. This creates discouragement and a sense of failure.

Students sometimes ask: “What will I gain from meditation practice?” or “When will I know that I have realizations or accomplishment?” or even “What is the fastest and easiest way to enlightenment?” One of the problems seems to be making dharma practice into yet another goal to be accomplished.

The texts assure us that we need energy and dedication to advance along the path, just as we would to become proficient in any skill or sport. Yet it is easy to fall into the pattern or trap of making one’s practice rigid and ambitious. We grow depressed when we don’t appear to be making any progress: when we meditate and nothing seems to happen, or when we cannot regain our initial experiences. Our very expectations create a barrier to the natural unfolding of the mind’s potential.

The dharma is supposed to make our lives happier and less encumbered. “Feeders on joy shall we be,” as the Buddha said. The dharma should be like yeast in the heavy dough of our everyday existence, making our days lighter and more digestible. So when our practice becomes yet another rock in the rucksack of life, making everything seem heavier and more stressful, something isn’t working properly.

In the famous simile of a lute, the Buddha explained that just as the strings of a musical instrument should be neither too tight nor too loose, likewise our practice should be well tuned—not too intense and not too lax. Like a marathon runner, we need to pace ourselves.

We need to encourage ourselves and our fellow practitioners to lighten up and stop taking ourselves so seriously. Sometimes I think the seventh paramita should be a sense of humor! It is very unlikely that we will really accomplish full enlightenment in this lifetime. So what? We have countless future lives to continue the work. In this life, we can allow ourselves to relax a bit and enjoy the flowers, even as we keep walking onward."

~ Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo, originally from London, was one of the first Westerners to be ordained as a Tibetan Buddhist nun. She is the subject of the biography Cave in the Snow, which describes her twelve-year retreat in the Himalayas, and is the founder of Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery in Tashi Jong, India, where she currently resides.

Soul Mate?

Valentines is near... Keep your humor.

"It was a phone interview which was really nice because I get to sit around in my socks and stuff. [Laughs.] ‘What do you think,’ said this wonderful person interviewing me, ‘what do you think about soul mates?’ Then I tend to surprise people because I said, ‘you know, I don’t.’ ‘What’s that,’ I asked, eager to find out. ‘What is it, I don’t know, I thought you might know.’ ‘I have no idea what a soul mate is, such an idea never occurred to me.’ I mean I hear the phrase all over the place, but – Seems like another drug to me. It’s like the last bastion, right? ‘No other relationship has worked, but I’ll hold out for the final fantasy. It will be called the soul mate. It’s where I’ll stuff all my fantasies and wait for it to come.’

It’s like enlightenment, you know. ‘I’ll put all my fantasies of a better life into my concept of enlightenment, then I’ll wait for it to happen. And when it doesn’t, I’ll be really disappointed.’  [Laughs.]"

– Adyashanti, Leaping Beyond All Fear, October 21, 2006, Oakland, CA.

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Friday, February 16, 2018

Next Life as a Poodle

If all we want is to be happy, then we may wish to be born in our next lives as a poodle! ~Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo

An article by John Malkin, originally published in the final issue of Ascent Magazine. It’s a Saturday night in Santa Cruz, a small city in central California nestled between the mountains and ocean. Seventyfive people have gathered to listen to Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo speak about the possibilities of transforming the mind through suffering. It is to be her final public talk in the United States, completing ten years of worldwide touring to raise funds for the Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery, which she established in 2000. As Tenzin Palmo enters the room, a respectful quiet arises and we bow to this Buddhist nun who so earnestly strives for perfection and offers the world such rich examples of dedication, compassion and social action. Tenzin Palmo begins her evening lecture by speaking about the Buddha’s first teachings. “When the Buddha gave his fir sermon, he didn’t talk about bliss, light or enlightenment. He talked about suffering and the end of suffering!― Aware of how heavy the word suffering can sound in English, she further explains the subtle levels of dukkha, or dis-ease, as described in Buddhist psychology. “We are all endlessly maneuvering to create a sense of satisfaction in our lives. We do everything to avoid discomfort and to find comfort. We think that pleasure makes a good life and difficulties make a bad life. But if all we want is to be happy, then we may wish to be born in our next lives as a poodle!― In this way, she turns our common, habitual thinking upside down and mixes in directness, honesty and a tinge of humour that help me realize the truth of these timeless dharma teachings. I’m grateful to be reminded that every pleasurable or difficult experience that I encounter can be used on the spiritual path. Even more so, it is precisely when we encounter difficult people or uncomfortable situations that deep spiritual growth can occur. Rather than being frustrated, we can be grateful for the opportunity to cultivate patience and compassion. Tenzin Palmo explains, “We can see a difficult person as our teacher, saying to ourselves, This person is so utterly obnoxious. Thank you! Now I can practise patience!― When we have uncomfortable experiences, it’s possible to practise relaxing into what is happening, rather than wishing it were different. As Tenzin Palmo puts it, “We can develop the outlook that it is okay to be not okay.― Just as individuals often miss opportunities to transform suffering into compassion and patience, so it is with groups of people, including whole nations. Tenzin Palmo cites the September 2001 attacks on the World Trade Center as a missed opportunity. “America as a whole missed the lesson from the attacks. The lesson was, You’re not invulnerable. You’r invulnerable from living in terror and fear. This may be the first time it’s happened to you, but it is a daily occurrence for many on the planet. The Buddha said, Hatred does not cease by hatred; hatred ceases by non-hatred or love. I felt it was a time for extremely skillful action, not to create a polarization in the world of ‘us’ against ‘them’.― There are looks of agreement and understanding about the opportunity missed by the United States after 9/11 and the unskillful choices that led to U.S. wars that continue today in Iraq and Afghanistan. I also sense in the room a sigh of relief at the idea that there is something useful to be done with suffering. Most of us have tried a variety of tactics to be free from suffering, but the notion of not resisting can often get lost in the shuffle. I see expressions of interest and hope. Tenzin Palmo goes on to explain, “As human beings we have a unique opportunity to transform suffering. In the heavenly realms there is no motivation for spiritual practice. And in the hell realms there is no opportunity to cultivate compassion because those beings are caught in anger and paranoia.― She explains that it is the human experience of both sadness and happiness and the blessing of intelligence that makes the human realm a precious one. “We need challenges to grow spiritually. How will we become patient if everyone around us is kind and lovable?― It occurs to me so clearly that Tenzin Palmo is speaking from her own experience when she describes the conditions that are perfect for developing compassion. No longer just a theory, her experiments with compassion-based social action to transform gender bias in Tibetan Buddhism have had formidable results. It was her root guru who originally suggested to Tenzin Palmo that she dedicate herself to establishing a nunnery. “Khamtrul Rinpoche had on several occasions asked me if I would start a nunnery. And I said, ‘Yes, Rinpoche.’ And of course I didn’t do anything because I didn’t have two rupees to rub together at that time! But in the future when I was again asked by the lamas to do something, I felt this is the time because if I don’t do it, who will?― In January 2000, Tenzin Palmo established the Dongyu Gatsal Ling (“Garden of the Authentic Lineage―) Nunnery in northern India. Fifty nuns currently live there, with room to expand to eighty. The DGL Nunnery includes a retreat and study centre, and construction of a temple is currently underway. Nuns learn grammar, philosophy, languages (Tibetan and English) and Buddhist practices. The buildings were designed by Tenzin Palmo with architectural details that http://tenzinpalmo.com Powered by Joomla! Generated: 23 October, 2016, 01:09 Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery - The Official Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo Website emphasize the feminine: “I was tired of straight lines and decided to make the buildings circular, with an open courtyard in the middle.― She elaborates, “The nuns’ residences are in a circular form, with an open space in the middle. I did feel that it was a mo sheltering kind of an environment, sort of nurturing. And having the inner courtyard would give them the opportunity to be out in the air, on the grass with the trees without being seen by the public, should anyone turn up.― The nunnery design is strikingly modern, fixed in the shape of a wheel with stone walkways as spokes interconnecting the facilities. “The buildings certainly were not traditional, which is why we’re creating a very traditional-looking temple. Although now we are getting the idea that in the temple maybe we could have some stained-glass windows. I think that the lamas will just die of envy when they see our beautiful Buddhist stained glass! They never had that in Tibet. So that will be a bit of an innovation. I think it’s a beautiful idea: the sun streaming through Green Tara or a mandala. If they only had that in Tibet, imagine!― The Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery is one manifestation of Tenzin Palmo’s dedication to inner and outer liberation and one that will surely make things easier for coming generations of women in the East and West. “Things are much better than they were,― says Tenzin Palmo. “Everything is revolutionized in the last twenty years. Women were this hidden potential within Buddhism that had been overlooked.― The morning after Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo’s public talk, I had the great joy of speaking with her one on one, with a forest of tall California redwoods providing a serene and powerful backdrop to our conversation. The winter sun gently illuminates her face, lighting her expressions and warming her gestures. As I finish asking her my first question, she removes the teabag from my cup, gently stirs the fragrant tea and hands me the cup to enjoy. She leans forward and tells me, “I had no idea that I would spend so much of my life wandering around the world giving talks and trying to raise funds. And had I known, I think I would’ve stayed in the cave! But fortunately one doesn’t know what the future has in store and if one takes it a step at a time, it’s fine.― In a cave measuring only ten feet wide by six feet deep, she experienced a deep silence and a freedom from worldly matters that was ideal for Buddhist practice. The stories of Tenzin Palmo’s solo retreat in a Himalayan cave at 13,200 feet were made famous by Vicki Mackenzie’s biography Cave in the Snow and have inspired meditation practitioners around the world. Tenzin Palmo spent twelve years—the last three in strict seclusion—in a small, damp cave practising meditation and studying the dharma day and night. “The whole thing appeared very dream-like. It seemed almost impossible that I actually spent all that time in seclusion. It seemed more like three months. Of course, when one has been in solitude for such a long time, one’s mind becomes extremely clear. And that clarity reflects in the ability to be able to see the underlying confusion of the people around one. Then, of course, great compassion arises toward others as well as toward one’s own confusion.― Although famous for the long retreat, she has with equal dedication agitated for equal rights for nuns. Like Thich Nhat Hanh, His Holiness the Dalai Lama and so many others, Tenzin Palmo teaches that the cultivation of liberation within one’s self is deeply interconnected with the liberation of others by cherishing their well-being and striving for peace and justice. She explains, “It’s not enough just to sit on your cushion and think may all beings be well and happy and send them lovingkindness. This good feeling has to be taken into actual actions.― Compassionate action is perhaps the best way to describe the effort and energy that Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo has extended to address suffering caused by prejudices against women in the world of Tibetan Buddhism. When she first arrived in Tibet in 1964, she encountered the dominant belief that although women were able to get close to experiencing nirvana, they would have to be reincarnated in a male body to be fully liberated. This attitude supported the further idea that the main role for nuns should be to serve monks on their own spiritual paths, meaning cooking and cleaning. “Tibetan Buddhism, as with all Buddhism, was basically hierarchical and patriarchal. That’s just the way it was,― she explains. “Traditionally, women were not educated and nuns also were educated and therefore they played a much lower role in society, and as far as Buddhism was concerned, women had no voice.― She immediately challenged ideas that limited the role of women in monastic and lay society, asking Buddhist lamas such simple and courageous questions as, What is it about the male body that allows for liberation? While some teachers examined and changed their attitudes regarding women, some Buddhist lamas still argue against the right of women to equally participate in spiritual practice. Some cite Buddhist texts that support limitations based on gender. “Certain texts state that in order to attain full buddhahood, one needs a male body,― Palmo tells me. But she emphasizes that in the earliest sutras, Buddha himself confirmed that enlightenment is not gender-biased. “When the Buddha’s attendant Ananda asked him if women were capable of liberation, he said, Yes, of course women are capable of liberation. Naturally, my feeling was that seeing Buddha nature—our inherent perfect, primal awareness, which is the http://tenzinpalmo.com Powered by Joomla! Generated: 23 October, 2016, 01:09 Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery - The Official Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo Website fullness of our wisdom/compassion mind—is beyond gender. “What is it about the male body that is so special and has to do with attaining the goal of the spiritual path?― she asks rhetorically. “We went to see His Holiness the Dalai Lama and he said that as far as he was concerned—male or female body—it made no difference.― Although the Dalai Lama agreed that gender doesn’t play a role in realizing enlightenment, Tenzin Palmo wanted His Holiness to understand that other lamas still refuse to treat nuns and monks equally. “I told him that other lamas had different views. He wanted to know which lamas had different views. There are at least two lineages that are very opposed to women receiving full ordination. They say, ‘Women didn’t have it in Tibet. Nuns are perfectly happy just being novices. What’s the problem?’ And that wanting them to get the full ordination is just the work of a bunch of Western feminists trying to create problems, and that since the nuns are perfectly happy as they are, they should be left alone. His Holiness the Dalai Lama is very keen for nuns to receive the full ordination but he says that the people behind him are not. And he’s not the Pope, so he can’t just make declarations. He can only go forward if he knows he has the support o the monks behind him. And he doesn’t have the support. The whole subject has been under ‘research’ for the last thir years and they haven’t come to a conclusion yet.― Tenzin Palmo concludes, “It’s very hard for people who are trying to maintain their traditions and are always looking backward to really happily countenance any kind of fundamental change, especially when it doesn’t affect them in any way positively. Therefore, the monks have no incentive to give full ordination to the nuns. So they don’t.― Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo has defied the odds and achieved extraordinary results by gently yet firmly confronting aspects of Tibetan Buddhism that do not serve men or women. In February 2008, His Holiness the Twelfth Gyalwang Drukpa, head of the Drukpa Kagyu lineage, gave Tenzin Palmo the rare title of Jetsunma, which means “venerable master.― The title was awarded in recognition of her spiritual achievements as a nun and her efforts to promote the status of female practitioners of Tibetan Buddhism. Tenzin Palmo was never a person easily dissuaded by others’ views. How can I become perfect? was the penetrating question that fascinated and inspired Tenzin Palmo as a little girl growing up in London, when her family and friends knew her as Diane Perry. Although it would be years before she would become one of the first Westerners to travel to the East and ordain as a Buddhist nun, her love for the spiritual life had already been sparked. Born in 1943, Tenzin Palmo exhibited a self-motivation and confidence that was surprising to adults, expressing no doubts that her life would be dedicated to spiritual practice. In 1964, when she was twenty-one, she journeyed to Tibet and met her root guru, His Eminence the Eighth Khamtrul Rinpoche from the Drukpa Kagyu lineage, then ordained as a Tibetan Buddhist nun. As a child, she had been reluctant to choose between thinking of herself as a boy or a girl, and her curiosity about distinctions between male and female now appear as something of a precursor to the great efforts she’s made to confront gender bias in Tibetan Buddhism and to support nuns. Tenzin Palmo has led nothing short of a spiritual revolution to change patriarchal attitudes in Buddhism by revitalizing the ancient feminine teachings of the Togdenma, a mystical Buddhist tradition that was virtually wiped out during the Chinese Communist takeover of Tibet in 1959. Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo’s compassionate commitment to end sexism is evident in her own vow to become enlightened as a woman. “As long as there is discrimination against females,― she says, “then one should strive to be born again and a in a female body to help that situation. Should the time come when males are in a weaker position, then one would vow to be reborn in a male body.― Sitting with Tenzin Palmo, I’m grateful to be reminded of the freedom and lovingkindness that we’re all born with. As she says, “We always have a choice how we respond.― When I remind her of all she has done to support nuns and diminish suffering she humbly says, “Slowly, slowly… It just takes a bit of time and patience.― As our time together draws to a close, I ask a final question about the possibility of developing empathy and peace in a world so caught in fear, distrust and violence—and how the Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery might support such a transformation. “Obviously, as far as the nunnery is concerned, we are hoping that some of the nuns will really continue with their philosophical studies and later become teachers themselves. I think it is very important. And His Holiness the Dalai Lama also feels it’s very important that the nuns rely much less on the monks and that they themselves become teachers of each other. So, this is what we are aspiring to.― With these words, I catch a glimpse of Tenzin Palmo’s nunnery as a model of compassionate community for the planet, with responsibility for change residing in each one of us. “Up until now, human beings have not had a good track record. If you look at history, it is full of violence and deprecations and we don’t seem to learn much. “For all of our intelligence, we don’t seem too bright. I’d like to be positive, and certainly at this time, after going so fa the wrong track, now finally America has a hope. But one man cannot do it on his own. He needs the population and his http://tenzinpalmo.com Powered by Joomla! Generated: 23 October, 2016, 01:09 Dongyu Gatsal Ling Nunnery - The Official Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo Website own government to really change their attitudes and lessen their aggression and greed and to try to find a better way to live a life which brings benefit to beings instead of so much harm. We pray that some sanity will arise in this world and replace this tremendous paranoia which has gripped the country.― Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo breathes in deeply and exhales with a gentle and optimistic smile. “What can I say? Never give up hope. Nil desperandum. This is a new start. Let’s hope that America and the world uses that instead of going through the same old tired, habitual responses which in the past didn’t work, and in the future will not work either. Let us hope this is the dawn of a new day.― John Malkin is a writer and musician in Santa Cruz, California, where he hosts a weekly radio program, The Great Leap Forward, on Free Radio Santa Cruz. His two books are Sounds of Freedom (Parallax Press, 2005), interviews with musicians on social change and spirituality, and The Only Alternative: Christian Nonviolent Peacemakers in America (Wipf & Stock, 2008). http://tenzinpalmo.com

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Breathe Push

"Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh. (The beloved community belongs to divine Oneness, and so does all that it achieves.)

On Christmas Eve 103 years ago, my grandfather waited in a dark and dank cell. He sailed by steamship across the Pacific Ocean from India to America leaving behind colonial rule, but when he landed on American shores immigration officials saw his dark skinned, his tall turban worn as a part of his Sikh faith, and saw him not as a brother but as foreign, as suspect, threw him behind bars where he languished for months until a single man, a white man, a lawyer named Henry Marshall filed a writ of habeas corpus that released him on Christmas Eve 1913.

My grandfather Kehar Singh became a farmer, free to practice the heart of his Sikh faith — love and oneness. So when his Japanese American neighbors were rounded up and taken to their own detention camps to the deserts of America he went out to see them when no one else would. He looked after their farms until they returned home. He refused to stand down.

In the aftermath of September 11th when hate violence exploded in these United States, a man that I called uncle was murdered. I tried to stand up. I became a lawyer like the man who freed my grandfather and I joined a generation of activists fighting detentions and deportation, surveillance and special registration, hate crimes and racial profiling. And after 15 years with every film, with every lawsuit, with every campaign, I thought we were making a nation safer for the next generation.

And then my son was born. On Christmas Eve, I watched him ceremoniously put the milk and cookies by the fire for Santa Claus. And after he went to sleep, I then drink the milk and ate the cookies. I wanted him to wake up and see them gone in the morning. I wanted him to believe in a world that was magical. But I am leaving my son a world that is more dangerous than the one I was given. I am raising — we are raising — a brown boy in America, a brown boy who may someday wear a turban as part of his faith.

And in America today, as we enter an era of enormous rage, as white nationalists hail this moment as their great awakening, as hate acts against Sikhs and our Muslim brothers and sisters are at an all-time high, I know that there will be moments whether on the streets or in the school yards where my son will be seen as foreign, as suspect, as a terrorist. Just as black bodies are still seen as criminal, brown bodies are still seen as illegal, trans bodies are still seen as immoral, indigenous bodies are still seen as savage, the bodies of women and girls seen as someone else's property. And when we see these bodies not as brothers and sisters then it becomes easier to bully them, to rape them, to allow policies that neglect them, that incarcerate them, that kill them.

Yes, rabbi, the future is dark. On this New Year's Eve, this watch night, I close my eyes and I see the darkness of my grandfather's cell. And I can feel the spirit of ever rising optimism in the Sikh tradition Chardi Kala (ever-rising high spirits) within him.

So the mother and me asks what if? What if this darkness is not the darkness of the tomb, but the darkness of the womb? What if our America is not dead but a country that is waiting to be born? What if the story of America is one long labor? What if all of our grandfathers and grandmothers are standing behind now, those who survived occupation and genocide, slavery and Jim Crow, detentions and political assault? What if they are whispering in our ears "You are brave"? What if this is our nation's greatest transition?

What does the midwife tell us to do? Breathe. And then? Push. Because if we don't push we will die. If we don't push our nation will die. Tonight we will breathe. Tomorrow we will labor in love through love and your revolutionary love is the magic we will show our children.

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh. (The beloved community belongs to divine Oneness, and so does all that it achieves.)"

-- Sikh activist and lawyer Valarie Kaur gave this six-minute address during a watch night service (a late-night service) at the Metropolitan AME Church on Dec. 31, 2016, in Washington. She joined several leaders, including the Rev. James Forbes of Riverside Church in New York City, Imam Talib Al Rashid of Harlem and the Rev. William Barber, a pastor in North Carolina, who stood beside her. 

Gritty Purification

"As we go through our trials and tribulations, outer circumstances seem to be exquisitely put together specifically to test each part of our realization. These trials and tribulations will also occur from the inside. Your unconscious at some point will start to reveal itself. In the unawakened person, the unconscious never fully comes into conscious awareness, but with awakening our means of suppression and denial are either torn apart completely or wounded so severely that we can’t repress as much.

The unconscious elements of our mind come into conscious awareness, and that is another kind of trial. What’s being asked of you is to meet all of that inner material from the standpoint of divine being, from the standpoint of eternity – to meet it, to understand it, to resolve it. That may sound quite easy, but when it’s actually happening it’s a little more gritty and real than the description suggests.

You could think of these inward and outward trials as a form of purification. You’re purifying the vehicle: body and mind, the same body and mind that you woke up out of when you awakened. Now this vehicle has to undergo its own purification so spirit can fully embody your humanity. And this is where the story of Jesus again provides a powerful mirror, because Jesus is someone who embodied in his humanity the divine impulse, divine being."

– Adyashanti, Resurrecting Jesus

Image ~ "The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling."~ Ephesians 1:18