Rudi

"Difficult situations come to test you and to tell you that you need greater energy. You have to look in people and feel people and see what God is projecting towards you. You cannot accept any situation as not being good. You pursue it and try to clarify the situation. You attack the person because you can’t accept what they’re telling you, or you love the person and you go above the situation and try to find out why you’re closed. You have to surrender all of your effort and all of your ego."

"The sign of God’s love is often pain, not rose leaves and soft music. How could the love of something infinite be soft and sweet to a finite, fearful little being filled with millions of stupid illusions? It is the nature of light to reveal the truth. On the physical level, the truth is bound up in various tensions. On the psychological level, the truth is a system of lies we have glued together. On a spiritual level, the truth is an existential hopelessness for people who have the misfortune to understand without being able to act, or the illusion of attainment by those who can do but do not see the effects of their actions. Even if God approaches quietly as a good parent in the night, the effects are bound to be devastating."

"I began to understand that the quantity of food I ate was to give me the energy I needed to fight the tensions that had accumulated in this life. And after separating from Baba, the teacher I had studied with for many years, I needed to work harder to replace the energy I had received from him - At the same time I found that the releasing of tension opened in me a joyousness that allowed God to enter my being. A teacher in no way is a replacement for God and I found that the person with whom I had studied was so obsessed with his being God, or more than God, that I could not respect and sustain the relationship. Anybody who teaches by tension is an insecure human being. A teacher should give love and free people from tension so that they can open to God."

"The most important event in the life of a student after meeting his guru is leaving him."

— Albert Rudolph (Rudi) (1928 – 1973), also known as Swami Rudrananda, was an entrepreneur and spiritual teacher in New York City. Rudolph's first spiritual experience occurred at age 6 in a park. Two Tibetan Buddhist lamas appeared out of the air and stood before him. They told him they represented the heads of the "Red Hat" and "Yellow Hat" sects, and they were going to place within him the energy and wisdom of Tibetan Buddhism. Several clay jars appeared, which they said they would put inside his solar plexus. The lamas said these jars would stay in him and begin to open at age 31. He would then begin the process of assimilating their contents, and would continue to do so for the rest of his life.

Rudi taught  "a yoga which is used to collect energy within yourself and bring through your own chemistry the energy that is in the universe. A human being is only able to do that by internalizing energy and bringing it through their system. A person has all the mysteries of the universe inside." Rudi developed exercises for releasing negative energy, cultivating gratitude, sitting with deceased persons, and "double breathing" for "drawing in cosmic energy". Rudi died in a small plane crash in the Catskills. The three other occupants walked away with only minor injuries. He was dictating a journal entry, and his last words were, "...a deeper sense of surrender".