It's All Ego

"How do I know if I am being earnest, or if it is just spiritual ego?"

First, it is all ego. It is more a question of what position is the ego taking? Does it seek to add to itself in the name of spirituality and enhance a character as this or that, a sense of exclusiveness, more spiritual, a teacher; and secretly wishes for the recognition and accolades that come with it? Or is it positioning itself in earnest reverence to mature at the foot of its maker so that it is made fit for service? Therefore it is not about getting rid of ego but rather discovering its holy purpose: to offer itself in profound surrender and devotion so that it may undergo a metamorphosis, be emptied and resurrected as divinity in human form.”

~ Atreya Thomas https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100011530818976&hc_ref=ARQ5HM5_lYsgUJRL4EfFtAhGVoXKvY3rcBHVUMl73wZBKtGLcSEmZKBdAmP549YC49c

Art ~ Echo and Narcissus (1903), a Pre-Raphaelite interpretation by John William Waterhouse.
“Echo and Narcissus is a myth from Ovid's Metamorphoses. The introduction of the myth of the mountain nymph Echo into the story of Narcissus, the beautiful youth who rejected sexuality and falls in love with his own reflection, appears to have been Ovid's invention. Narcissus falls deeply in love with "all the things for which he himself is admired." He then wastes away with love for himself, echoing the manner in which Echo did earlier. A while later his body is gone, and in its place is a narcissus flower. The pale flower is still found near river banks so that it can be reflected in the water."
~ Wikipedia